chapter 7

I want to kill aggie. Is that bad? I cant stand that little bitch. And all her little sidekicks. Maybe I should have jumped. Would she have even felt bad? Probably not. I bet it would have satisfied her.
Mother told me she wanted me dead… same ole’ same ole’. Nothing new.
I actually had an idea, that somewhat worked. I had the upper hand with mother for once. And only that once. I acted like a brat… in public! I knew she couldn’t do anything to me in the store! But once we got home, it was a completely different story. The gas chamber was what I got. And I did not like it!!!

Father left. He left for good. His drunk ass couldn’t even stand our family, none of us can! But were still holding out. I don’t want to talk about that dead beat low life son of a bitch.

chapter 6

mom is such a conniving little bitch. i hate her. i cant stand her!!!!! she was so fricken nice to me!!! and now look... ughh! i actually felt safe with shirtly, but now that shes gone mom is just back to normal.she actually had me fooled! I feel so damn stupid.
after mom was going around bitching about shirly and how much of a bitch she is... then she acted sooo nice to me saying it was over... then this lady came from social services asking me about all this stuff about my mom beating me. ofcourse i had to answer no... but then mom was just right back to her old ways. i actually fell for her dumb shit. i hate her.

Chapter 5

This week was terrible. Mother accidentally stabbed me. at least, i think it was an accident.. she made it seem like an accident.She acted like my friend for just a brief little bit, acting like she actually cared. i couldn't believe it. it was so awkward, but it felt comforting. i thought i wasn't the black sheep of the family anymore, but man was i wrong. The stab wound felt like it was all the way through my chest. i think it was infected, so i cleaned it up. now it feels okay.

Chapter 4

we went to the russian river today. it was not as fun as any other days. she made me.... i dont even wanna say it was so disgusting... she made me eat my brothers shit.she rubbed it allllll over my face. i wanted to throw up.
and then.. shes making me sleep in the garage, its awful. its freezing and everything. i cant take it.
then she made me eat ammonia! i thought i was going to die. it was awful. i had the runs for what felt like ever. and she wouldnt even let me come upstairs!i dont know how much longer i can take this...